We always talk about toxic relationships, friendships, etc... But rarely talk about our own relationship with this intoxicating poison, that maybe the result of so many unplanned pregnancies, failed dreams, lost jobs, wasted money, disappointing those that love you most.
Being in a relationship with alcohol is worse than having a man that beats you up daily. Cause unlike an abusive partner, alcohol does not show you you the damage he does. He smooth talks you, and like any man, comes with a certain class. Hahahaha. I remember how I would be like, "I am not an alcoholic", because I would just drink any kind of alcohol... "We drinking Ciroc today..." this for some odd reason, made me believe I was beyond alcoholism. But the funny and stupid thing is that the result is the same. You wake up to a morning filled with regret.
I flirted with alcohol, and here is my story:
I started with two brutal fruit dumpies - tasting, that wont get me drunk.
3 Storms - just a little tipsy to get me in the mood.
5 Saritas - I am more myself when I am a tipsy.
A small nip of Smirnoff 1818 - This made me forget all my things at the Vaal Dam, when I was at the All Res Picnic, and I was crying like a baby in public. This should have made me see that I am now in a relationship with this monster.
Then I was buying big bottles of Triple Distilled - through this I inherited the name "Nomashushu" and I cant believe I was proud about this.
Then I became the Long Island IceTea, Smirnoff Spin and Skyy Vodka queen. 6 to 12 Spins per weekend, until I decided ENOUGH.
Drinking expensive french campaign, here and there, the odd Belvedere, Ciroc, Absolute Vodka, the more expensive the better, was my biggest deceit. It may look good, it may cost alot, but alcohol brought me nothing but REGRET.
So that's my story on my abusive relationship with alcohol. I thank God for deliverance as this thing was out to destroy me. No one ever thought, including myself, that I may have a problem, but it is what it is. I have relapses now and then, but NOW I share this so that you can evaluate yourself. Use or lose it! That is entirely up to you...
- Is alcohol taking precedence in your life?
- Do you have broken relationships with certain people due to petty mistakes you made whilst you were intoxicated?
- Do you sometimes wish people could mind their own business regarding your drinking habits?
- Have you missed business meetings, work, school, failed or even been fired due to consequences of a drunken night/ weekend, etc...?
It does not matter what justification you may have for drinking, if it causes you to have slip ups in your life, it is about time you do something about it. I exercised the "GIFT OF GOODBYE" as my lovely friend Nolwandle would say, and shame, it is truly a gift cause saying goodbye is HARD.
But if you are not an alcoholic, I would urge you to stop flirting with ALCOHOL...
If you are in call Alcohol Anonymous South Africa on:
0861 HELP AA (435-722)
Useful links:
http://www.aanonymous.org.za/IsAAForYou.aspx
http://www.my-alcoholic-addict.com/types-of-alcoholism.html
